Memorial Day

Many people think Memorial Day is about celebrating our country or supporting the military.  It has become a day where people do red white and blue things.  It is a day to celebrate our country and support the military, though we should be doing that everyday.  More importantly, Memorial Day is a day to remember those brave citizens that sacrificed everything in the line of duty for this country.  We are free but freedom isn't free.  Someone had to sacrifice.  Someone laid down their life for that freedom.  We should thank them and their families everyday but most especially on Memorial Day.

I spent the day wondering around Territory Days with Caitlin.  Street fairs area always good fun.  This one was especially good because I got to see my man all dressed up in his military blues.  He was serving on the Color Guard holding the Army flag and he looked good.  Poor guy must have been hot but still... he looked good.  I'm proud of him.  I am proud of my soldier and I love him.  I also hope that I never have to remember him on Memorial Day.

Jeep, ah Jeep Jeep Jeep!

I bought a car!  It's a pretty Jeep and I love it.  See!

The gas mileage isn't great but I've ALWAYS wanted a Jeep.  I envisioned myself with a Cherokee but a Liberty will do.  I actually think that it is cuter.  And white.  My first car ever was white.

I eventually shall name her.  I only just put my magnets on the back and hung something from the rear view mirror.  It will feel like it is officially mine when my back seat cover comes in.  That way the dogs won't tear it up.  I've never really cared about the condition of my car but when you're still paying it off it does make a difference.  Maybe I won't trash this one.  Though... there will always be dog hair in my car.

I'm a Jeep OWNER!

Time for a new car

My car died last year.  My sister was kind enough to lend me her car for a while but lately it's been chugging more lately.  I feel very fine chugging around in my POS.  I think it's time for a reliable automobile.

Problem is, I'm freaking poor.  I do have a plan to solve that but I'm not ready to post that here.

Anyway, went out with my father and Jak to look at cars today.  Found a few I like.  I should have new wheels sooner rather than later.  Now, I'll be the first to admit that I know nothing about cars.  Nothing.  I'm the stereotypical woman who wants a good cup holder.  I want a smaller SUV with all wheel or four wheel drive with a big enough back seat for dogs and enough room in the back to haul stuff.  Those are my needs.  I've always loved Jeeps.  Now I like Subarus because I like my Outback.

Went out about and found some cars that I'm interested in.  I bet I bothered the crap out of my dad because I was like, whatever you think it good, but honestly I have no idea about any of it.  So we just kind of looked around.

Found two cars that I'm interested in.

One- 2007 Jeep Liberty Sport

Ain't she pretty?

Two- 2000 Lexus Rx 300

There were some others that I was interested in but so far these are the top two.  I really don't want to take on a car loan but it's time for a new car.  I just really don't want to go through the hassle of GETTING one.

Damn this stupid adult thing.

That destruction thing

You know, human beings are strange creatures.  We crave attention and companionship which lead us to form and put up with all sorts of societies.  We love each other and express friendship and relationships in one breath then turn around and systematically destroy the ties we've spent so much time cultivating.  We leave destruction, hurt and anger in our wakes at the same time we feed the fire of our own hurt and anger.  It turns into a vicious cycle of bitterness and self loathing.  Yet we do it over and over again all over the world.  It's amazing we obey laws when they tell us not to steal or murder.  Sometimes it's amazing the human race manages to continue without snuffing ourselves out.

I've spend the last 24 hours witnessing such a destructive act between two people I both care for and respect.  Things were said that were both unfair and cruel.  A relationship, a multi-layered relationship, went up in smoke for no good reason.  I wish I could have headed it off.

First, I was reminding myself that people grieve in their own ways.  Sometimes that means lashing out.
Second, I was reminding myself of my own advice of "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all."
Third, I was trying to stay on top of all the shit flying around while being respectful to both parties.
Fourth, I was shocked by the mushroom cloud of the explosion and didn't know what to do next.

Fifth... deal with the fallout.

Hopefully the core group of us that have managed to keep ourselves mostly clean from the shit flying around can come together and form a stronger group.  Maybe we'll be stronger after we lick our wounds and move on.  Those of us that can keep a clear mind and head above the storm clouds can do our best to pick up the pieces and find a new way for them to fit together.

It sucks though.  I wish everyone could have taken a couple deep breaths, counted to ten, dealt with their hurt and anger in a mature way then sat down in a couple of days to work everything out and come to an understanding.  But that frisky human desire to destroy got in the way.

Damnit.