Laziness

Another weekend gone and yet again I got nothing accomplished.  I need to break free of this lazy cycle I'm in and actually get crap done.  I have so much to do and it piled up and piles up.  Then the pile is so huge there's no way I could get it all done in a reasonable time so I just don't do it.  Vicious cycle.  And it stresses me out so yet again, I do nothing.  I really could just kick myself.

It's hard to work so many hours and still have time in the day to be sane and get everything done that needs to be done.  I've been choosing to stay sane and get nothing done but that doesn't really help either.  Dunno what to do about it either.  I might have to take a day this week and just get everything I need to do done.  That will take some serious ass kicking.  I need someone to kick my ass full time.

Sigh.

Well in other news...  I have no other news really.  Work.  Sleep.  Work.  You know my life.

My little brother is headed back to his end of the country for his last semester of college.  Enjoy it while you can bro.  The real world is gearing up to kick you in the teeth when you graduate.  Or that just could be Monday morning talking.  I'm proud of you!  Another English Lit degree in the family.

Finally think I came up with a name for my main character in my novel.  Keller.  Which of course I stole from somewhere else but if you don't want to end up with a name like Salkagoindlasd, you have to steal names.  I am on the fence about it in that it may be too unique, which you will see why that might be a conflict as I work further into the plot of my book.  Eh.  For now I think it will have to do.  I just love it too much to move off of it for awhile.

I'm editing and writing a bit up soon so I may post that later.  For now this will just have to conclude my thoughts for the morning.  I wish I could have more coffee but I haven't yet finished my water.  At least that's one rule I'm sticking with.  I'm lazy but hey at least I'm drinking water!  Progress!

Another piece of Untitled

I edited the first bit of my untitled novel beginning.  Thank God because it needed it.  Then I wrote two more pages.  Keep in mind that they have not been edited and sorely need to be.  But I figured I'd share it anyway.

Feedback is always welcome!

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Note that the new bit starts after the ~*~*~.

Movin' right along

Well things have been moving right along.  No real complaints or observations either.  Work, sleep and work mostly. 

My brother is off doing training for the Air Force for two months so I have the house to myself.  It is rather nice.  Though it might be bad for me to live by myself because I am very comfortable home alone.  I would fall into the habit of being a home body and no one would ever see me.  Socialization is a good thing.  If I spout that in dog training then I really should practice it in my home life too huh. 

Anyway, I wasn't planning on it but brought Theo over.  I really missed him when he was living with my parents because my brother is allergic.  But now that my brother isn't there I needed my kitty back in my life.  He's such a little joy.  Whitman is so happy to have his brother back.  They are just absolutely hilarious when they play together.  I keep trying to get it on video but of course as soon as I grab my phone they stop.  Someday I'll get their boppit game on video and you'll all laugh.  I'm loving the nighttime snuggles too.  Neither Whitman or Gerani are huge snugglers so I'm glad to have Theo who likes to curl up with me at night.  Waking up to him purring makes me less grumpy.  Except when he's purring on my face.  That's not as much fun.

Work has been dull.  Even more so because I'm training someone.  So basically I just sit here and give directions every so often.  Yawn worthy.  However, now that I've trained several people I now don't have to worry about taking time off and such.  I also got to dictate my schedule a little.  So now I work through lunch and get off at 4 instead of 5.  I can't tell you how much it helps my moral to see the sun before it goes down.  So nice.  Work continues to be boring though.  Oh well.  Again, I'm glad to have a job.

The house... Ug. That sums up how I feel about the house.  It just seems to be one thing after another going on there.  I have a hard time seeing an end in all the remodeling.  That makes it hard for me to summon the energy to work on it in my already hectic schedule.  Which is not helpful in the slightest.  I just get really frustrated with all of of.  It is coming along, in thanks mostly to my mom and dad that are enjoying my home ownership more than I am I think.  I'll enjoy it when I can actually live in my own space again.  Sigh, sigh, triple sigh.  

I'm making small changes to life in the spirit of a new year, which is already a week and a half old, can you believe it?  One rule is I have to drink one bottle of water after my first cup of coffee in the morning if I want to have another.  This is a potentially deadly rule but not necessarily to me.  More to whatever unsuspecting soul approaches me too cheerily or too quickly on the mornings when I've only had one cup of coffee and am feeling resentful toward a world where this rule could exist.

The second rule is I am no longer allowed to spend money on soda.  I suspect this will be the hardest because my Mountain Dew Code Red cravings are my most potent.  But in the spirit of being healthier I need to cut the soda out.  Also will save me some money.  Doing this along with the water and coffee rule may make me seriously caffeine deprived though so approach me slowly and with no sudden movements when I look a little tired.

The third rule is I can only have fast food once a month. I'm not a huge fast food person to begin with but I do sometimes enjoy a large fry or a hamburger that I later regret.  I tend to eat fast food when I forget my lunch though.  So I've loaded up with healthy snack foods at work and the later lunch will probably help too.  And making smoothies in the morning makes it so I can last the day without being as hungry.

Fourth is only healthy snack foods at home too.  No more chips or cookies or whatever.  Instead I have healthier crackers and fruit.

And lastly I have to spend time outside everyday.  I want to walk my dogs more often. This means Whitman has to be less of a couch potato which he isn't thrilled about. Laziest dog ever.  Gerani needs to lose 5 pounds too.

So those are the changes I've come up with.  Hopefully they last more than two weeks.

Vents from the furnace to the ceiling.

Ripped out kitchen.

Living room.  Ripped out the left side there.

2013 is out of the gate and... tired

So far 2013 has been exhausting.  Yesterday I swore I was going to catch up on all this stuff but that didn't happen.  I mostly lazed about.  I thought really hard about being productive so that should count for something.

I've been staying at my sister's house while she and my brother-in-law are in Hawaii.  Lucky bastards.  I've actually liked it though.  Their house is cozy.  Lucy, the beagle, was behaving herself for a while there.  We had one incident the first night were she was being a jerk to Whitman.  Whitman, in his infinite grace (yeah right!), took it very well and I didn't have a dog fight on my hands.  Good behavior didn't last though.  Last night I left for only about an hour to run down to my house.  It wasn't planned so I was forced to leave my two medium sized pizzas.  Lucy suffers from gluttony so she'll pretty much eat anything not nailed down, as it were.  I put the pizzas way up and back on the counter thinking they were safe from this little beagle.  Nope.  When I got back, my dogs were hiding in the corner, obviously having tried to talk Lucy out of it and fearing they would be in trouble since she didn't listen.  Lucy had the pizza boxes ripped apart and strewn all over the place.  No more pizza.  Sad.  And bad because Lucy's stomach was severely distended.  Well I took several hours trying to decide what to do because, of course, it was a holiday.  How do dogs always know it is a holiday?  They always do something to get into trouble on holidays.  Never fails.  Ultimately, at 9:30pm I decided to go ahead and take her in.  I knew that I wouldn't be able to sleep because I was so worried about her and I wouldn't want to leave her alone today without knowing she was going to be okay.

So I bundled her off to the emergency vet and actually got pretty prompt service.  In and out in an hour and 15 minutes.  That's got to be some kind of record.  Once I got there I couldn't be too mad at her.  There was this woman there just bawling because she'd just lost her dog.  So it made me grateful that Lucy, although an idiot, wasn't dying and would be okay.  As much as I complain about her, I do love her and I'd never forgive myself if something happened to her while I was watching her.  The vet was shocked that she'd eaten so much and did some xrays to make sure it wasn't flipping her stomach or anything else.  When she came back she told me she very rarely sees dogs with more distended stomachs than Lucy.  Plus it being so cheesy and high in fat, it was a good thing to get it out of her so that it didn't effect her pancreas.  They induced vomiting and got most if it out of her and sent her home good as new.  It was worth it to go there just to avoid having to clean up that mess I think.  Another fun Lucy story.

In other news I'm just completely exhausted.  My sleep schedule is so messed up after having a week off that it's going to be hard for me to get back on schedule.  This is why I am so careful with my sleep schedule because it really effects me if there is the slightest change.  Next time I have time off I'm going to keep my schedule on track as much as possible.  That way I'm not dragging so much when I have to get back to my normal routine.

Other than that, I have nothing new to report.  More on the house later.

Hello 2013!

Welcome to 2013!  

Another year over, another year beginning!  May it bring happiness and prosperity to you and yours, me and mine!

And now I'm going back to bed for a nap because I didn't want to get up anyway!

So much for not sitting on my ass... 

Adios 2012

Happy New Year!

Almost...

I don't really understand the whole celebrating a new year quite so much.  I mean, whoever came up with this calender just picked this as the end and tomorrow as the beginning.  Really it's just another day.  I guess people need structure to view the world and their lives.

I'm also not huge into New Years resolutions.  No one keeps them so why bother.  But of course then again it is good to analyze your life and see what you would like to change.  You should be doing that all year around but again, people need a reason to step back and look at themselves.  It's just too hard to be expected to do that every day.  Cynical?  Probably.

Alright alright alright...  I'll stop being cynical for a moment and take some time to reflect on the past year.  Been a strange one.  Lots of changes but mostly exhausting.  Maybe that's causing my cynical attitude.  I left LD.  That was a good change.  I finally held myself responsible for being miserable there and did something to change it.  Although the job I have no is pretty dull and not close to my heart, I am very grateful to have one.  The health insurance has been good too.  I got certified as a trainer.  I feel wonderful about that.  Lots of hard work went into that and I really felt Vallie looking over my shoulder on that one.  Thanks girl!  And I bought a house.  Granted that is as much a nightmare as it is a blessing at this point.  Mostly because I hate remodeling and it's hard for me to see past that.  It was a lot more work than I thought it was going to be.  Of course, when it is finished and I actually get to live there I'll be much more grateful.  Hopefully that happens sooner rather than later.  Yeah I need to devote more time and energy to it.

When looking back on the last year it is hard for me to see past the last couple months.  I have been exhausted and extremely unorganized these past couple of months.  I think it is clouding my outlook on the whole year.  I've had time off that I was supposed to use to get refocused and organized but that didn't happen, of course.  I did a lot of sitting on my ass and sleeping.  Instead of making more rejuvenated it has made me more exhausted.  Not a good thing really.

So I guess if I'm pressed I'll make these "resolutions":

• Stop being lazy and do what needs to be done.
• Finish the remodel.
• Exercise!

We'll see.  I hope 2013 is another year I can look back on and see some things I'm proud of.


Anywho, will be trucking off to a party with some friends tonight.  Game nights are always much appreciated and fun.  Made some snacks and jello shots.  Should be fun.

Goodbye 2012, I knew thee well!

Merry Merry Christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I certainly had a merry one.  Although I haven't been into the holidays as much this year as I usually am, I always love Christmas.

Super special this year because we had a WHITE CHRISTMAS!  Amazing!  It is much more likely to snow on Easter than it is on Christmas here so it was lovely to wake up to.  You know me and snow; we have a love love relationship.

Christmas morning!

So we had a small quiet Christmas this year.  Everyone was home which is such a blessing.  The big thing I got this year was a dishwasher.  Ah it's funny how when you get older your presents get a lot more practical but no less exciting.  I told my parents that I would never again live in a house without a dishwasher.  Now I won't have to.  Thank the Lord!  I loved seeing everyone open my presents.  Always great!  It was a wonderful quiet morning.

My grandparents flew in which is a big deal because normally we go out there to visit family.  I'm sure my grandpa thought he was freezing to death here as he often can be found wrapped in an electric blanket down in FL.  He enjoyed seeing the deer at least though.  Neither of them are in the Colorado mindset that we don't want the deer in the yard because they were out there feeding them.  My mom is going to have a time getting rid of them now.  Guess I can lend her Gerani for a couple of days.

Went and saw the Electric Safari at the zoo with Caitlin the other day.  First time I had ever been surprisingly.  Not surprisingly, I had a great time.  I love the zoo and if you mix that with Christmas lights I'm on board.  Very pretty though I don't envy them the job of putting them up or taking them down.  Caitlin and I had fun and yes I made her ride the carrousel.  What's the fun in life if you don't let your inner child out every so often?  So what if people look at you like you're a big nut.

Here are some more Christmas pictures!

Merry Christmas to all and to all a goodnight!